It’s been forever, well at least, it feels like it to me. I have not been writing at all and I miss it, I simply don’t have much time.
I had originally plan to change job in October as my assignment (a an executive) was ending and it would have been a perfect time to get back into programs and have a couple hours a week to write. But NO lol I was asked to stay and in my line of work, that is a huge honor. You simply don’t say no.
The good news is that although I have been single (not dating) for almost a year now, I was co-habiting with my ex-husband to give him a chance to get on his feet and to let the change be gradual for Clara. Well that has come to an end and he is now living on his own about 25 mins from my house. I have been waiting for this for a long time and was both physically and mentally ready. It has a lot more positive than negative and I am very thankful that my ex-husband is still someone I consider a friend and no matter how much we hurt each other, we care about Clara and want to make it as painless as possible for her.
Being alone in a big house is strange but I am getting used to it. It gets lonely at times but I am happy and I think having moments here and there is nothing to worry about. I sometimes worry about my future. People keep saying I will find someone but I am a bit jaded. I truly believe in soulmates and I am not sure mine is here. I wonder if perhaps I may have missed him. I mean people get sick, get in car accident etc. What if mine did before I met him. It’s a possibility.
Anyhow, I have Clara 70% of the time and I plan on using the other 30% to teach Zumba and write. So that is something!
Motivation is hard though, because if I am honest, I don’t remember much of my fic. Even after reading my notes, I am a bit lost. So I can either re-read the entire thing (NOOOOOOO) or maybe just the last couple chapters but then I risk plot holes.
Anyways, just wanted to say HI and make sure everyone is doing okay. I really want to give you a chapter soon.
P.s I am redecorating my house and I fell in love with this. Had to put both in my house somewhere 😀